A Woman Running Along The Rillito Wash Who Looks Strikingly Like Cynthia

Typically, Cynthia visits me in my dreams.  As I once shared with Stephanie, Cynthia's sister, I usually see Cynthia in my dreams between 0400 – 0500 a.m. – in the dream closest to the beginning of my wake cycle. 

While my dogs Rocket, Newman and I walked this morning, I noticed a woman running yet I noticed something more – from a distance the woman running looked like Cynthia.

I pulled the leashes on Rocket and Newman and asked them to “wait.”  Then, practically glaring at this woman, I stood and watched her run.

Dressed in clothing similar to Cynthia’s style of work out clothes, I watched as long blonde hair waved with each fast step.   As the runner approached, I discerned thick eyebrows, an olive-light brown skin tone and other physical features on her face almost too similar to Cynthia.  I noticed the level of concentration worn by this runner - similar to Cynthia's facial expression as she would have concentrated as she read, listened to a voicemail or wrote a message on paper. 

As she passed us, I turned my head and followed her with my eyes until I saw only

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creosote and mesquite trees. 

Letting go in that brief moment – I was watching Cynthia.

Standing there, a part of me wanted to yell, “hey where did you go…come back.” 

I let another moment pass and then I said, “let’s go” to the dogs and continued our walk.  On our way home, I sorted out what I thought seeing a woman running along the wash, who looks strikingly like Cynthia, meant to me.

My mind manufactured stories about her.  I imagined she was “working out” and because it was 0530 a.m. - she’s running before work.  I imagined what she was like, her work and much more.

Once the dogs and I reached our driveway, my manufacturing mind settled and I noticed myself discarding those stories.   While my stories provide a level of comfort to make sense of this encounter, if I wanted to, I could simply say this:  Cynthia just visited me and she’s doing well.  She’s doing so well, in fact, she has the stamina to run.

It shouldn’t surprise me that I “encountered” Cynthia running the wash.  Cynthia and I walked that section of the wash intermittently for years.  We’d spend those walks sorting aloud the days at our workplaces and events/feelings/emotions happening in our lives.

I am looking forward to where and when Cynthia presences herself, again.   Until then I can rely on my dreams to see her now and again.  

The Importance of Self Care Amid Caregiving

The Mesothelioma Center contacted me to post an article written by one of their staff members - Kaitlyn Teabo.   I'm happy to post the article on "Caring For Cynthia's" blog as it contains important information for all caregivers.  We as caregivers, first and foremost, MUST care for ourselves.  


Care professionals, as well as family caregivers, may tend to put the needs of others, such as pleural mesotheliomacancer patients, before their own. Care from a loved one will be much needed especially after cancer treatments, such as surgery, chemotherapy and radiation after their prognosis. Through this selfless act of kindness, it is easy for caregivers to lose sight of the importance of their own health, which may lead to illness, frustration, depression or burnout.

If you are a caregiver, you must allow time for yourself to recharge your batteries and to remain physically and mentally healthy. If not for you, consider your loved one. You will be able to give better care if you avoid the negative effects of not seeking time for yourself.

The National FamilyCaregiving Association found that 61 percent of caregivers providing at least 20 hours of caregiving per week suffered from depression. Research shows that medical, social and economic factors contribute to the complexity of caregiver depression and a number of studies suggest that caregivers with poorer health, or fewer financial resources, are at a high risk for depression.

It is important for caregivers to recognize the common signs of depression including:

·            Change in appetite

·            Change in sleep patterns

·            Fatigue, lack of energy

·            Pervasive sadness, anxiety, or "empty" mood

·            Decreased pleasure or enjoyment

·            Crying for no apparent reason, with no relief

·            Inappropriate or excessive guilt

·            Impaired concentration, slowed or disorganized thinking

·            Forgetfulness, problems with memory

·            Recurrent thoughts of death or suicide

·            Difficulty performing daily tasks – ordinary tasks are overwhelming

·            Withdrawal from people and usual activities; wanting to be alone

·            Increased use of alcohol and drugs

·            Increased irritability

The presence of depression in caregivers also affects their physical health, particularly in regard to immune function. A 2002 study by Lyanne McGuire, Ph.D., of John Hopkins School of Medicine with Kiecolt-Glaser and Glaser reported that even chronic, sub-clinical mild depression may suppress an older person's immune system. Participants of the study were in their 70s and those with chronic mild depression had weaker lymphocyte T-cell responses to two mitogens, which model how the body responds to viruses and bacteria. The immune response was down even 18 months later, and immunity declined with age. The key immune factor was duration, not severity, of depression.

       Steps to Improve Your Self-Care:

·           Schedule Time for You. To maintain your own health it is necessary to get relief from your        caregiving role. Get respite care if it is needed for you to be able to take some time for yourself. Respite care services provide someone to care for your loved one while you are away for an hour or for a couple of days.

·          Seek the Help You Need. Take advantage of community programs, like a support group, that can provide you with emotional support and valuable resources. If you feel overwhelmed at times, hire housekeeping help to minimize your stress level.

·          Stay Connected. Take time to stay involved with activities and people who bring you pleasure.

·          Communicate Clearly. Be realistic about how much of your time and yourself you can give and be mindful that not doing so can lead to burn-out.

·           Exercise and Eat Right. Even just a brisk walk can be a good stress reliever and eating a balanced diet can lower chances of immune deficiencies caused by stress or depression.

Caregivers can reach out to family members, friends, neighbors and helpful organizations (such as Hospice) within their community for support when things become overwhelming. Taking time for self-care allows caregivers to recharge and reset mentally, emotionally and physically; which helps their peace of mind and helps them to perform their caregiver duties with rejuvenated energy.

Author bio: Kaitlyn Teabo is a writer for The Mesothelioma Center. She combines her interests in writing, cancer research and emerging scientific technology to educate the mesothelioma community about asbestos and its related diseases.

Sources:

American Psychological Association. (2006, Feb., 23). Stress Weakens the Immune System. Retrieved from http://www.apa.org/research/action/immune.aspx

Evercare study of caregivers in decline. (2006, Sept.) Retrieved from www.caregiving.org/data/Caregivers%20in%20Decline%20Study-FINAL-lowres.pdf

Serani, Deborah. (2011, Nov. 15). Two Takes on Depression: Treating the very condition you live with––A clinician's dual perspective. Retrieved from www.psychologytoday.com/blog/two-takes-depression/201111/caregivers-and-depression

The Importance of Self Care. (2011, Nov. 30). Retrieved from http://www.aasa.dshs.wa.gov/caregiving/selfcare.htm